Today I have been wrestling with the fact I need a miracle. Yes, I have been healed from lymphoma, but the reality is that I still have an obstructed Superior Vena Cava from a clot. The clot formed when the tumor grew around the vessel and completely cut it off. To the point where the doctors say there is nothing they can do about it and I will have to live with it. The obstruction causes veins to stick out more prominantly than normal because that is now their main route of transport. I have a lot of pressure in my head when I bend down, put my shoes on, pick something up, lie flat on my back and the list goes on.
Thankfully the body is so wonderfully made that it can work around this problem using compensatory veins and I haven't dropped dead yet. I am thankful for this, but also miserable about the side effects and the fear of never getting back to the way I was previously because of fluid retention, I believe, caused by my lack of ability to drain it via the Superior Vena Cava.
So I have had a bit of a cry and a loud outpour of prayer to our Heavenly father for a miracle. To believe that He can heal me, regardless of what the doctors are saying. I was made by God, He knows my body inside and out, how many hairs on my head, freckles on my face, what veins and vessels go where and clearly made an alternative path that the blood could flow if this superior vena cava obstruction happens. But I need to be healed. I want to be healed so badly and prove to the people I love that God is real, amazing and faithful. That he can do miraculous things! In this happening I pray it would prompt the people I love to seek to know God and what he can do.
Please please please, join me in praying for this miracle. I know there are so many things to be thankful for (just read my thankful blog) and I should be pretty happy I'm alive (I am..) but hear my heart when I say that witnessing a miracle would be such a powerful testimony, not only for myself, but for everyone else.
Kendy x
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