Treatment Number 3 and some fun!

Treatment number 3 is upon us. I was hooked up to the chemo on Monday and won't finish until Friday. It's nice to have this lot of treatment through the weekdays rather than having to go into hospital on the weekend. I have my fears about the line leaking and getting clots again etc, so would really appreciate any prayers offered to reduce my stress and fears at the moment. I'm currently checking the infusion and dressing so often it's not funny...I know I shouldn't worry about it, but since what happened last time I'm extra nervous.

Another annoying part of chemo is I also have to take a lot of oral medication, including stuff that prevents me getting sick and also some steroids. The downside to the steroids is they make me puff up again in the face. It does go away when I stop taking them between treatments but whilst taking them I do often feel like I don't look like me and its hard to look in the mirror once again. I know I need to take them to make me better, it's just another one of those things that probably only a woman would stress about :(

On a lighter note here are some photos from the night I shave my head. It was so much fun. 

 We started out with a few looks...

 I feel a bit "Miley Cyrus" here....probably not a good thing these days?

 A bit military mohawk?

 The final result. More has fallen out since and is patchy, but now you see it!

I'm still coming to terms with having no hair. There are good days and bad days. Days when I'm happy to waltz around with nothing on my head (although it is cold and windy at times) and then there's days when I feel like I look naked. Even when clothed...my complete "look" just isn't what I am used to, and I feel bare. I look in the mirror and feel sad. I have a wig, which is great. Still struggling to get used to the feel and even look of it, but it does help to bring back that bit of "normal" about life. Scarves, especially silk ones are coming in handy and they're comfortable. So if you see any good ones, even plain ones for when I wear patterned clothes, send them my way!

This last week I have been feeling really good health-wise. Brett and I were able to spend a whole day out. We had breakfast, played mini golf and went shopping. I was exhausted by the end, but it was nice to go out and have fun. All the walking around however caused me a bit of grief with my Hickman line in terms of pain. I've rested since and I think it's healing really well and my body is getting used to it. 

  

It was also fathers day at the beginning of September, and I had a bald photo with my dad. We look a lot alike. I never thought I would shave my head and look so much like dad. But it was nice! Haha here's a picture of us!

 

It does also still get overwhelming at times with the amount of people who want to help out, see how I'm going and in general just be supportive. I often have to say the same things over and over again. It's something I don't want to feel, but sometimes I do. So please don't be offended if it takes me longer to reply to messages or if I'm talking to you and don't want to talk about cancer. I do care about what is going on in your life too! ;)

I still cannot express enough how thankful Brett and I are. We are always talking about who has said what and how it makes us feel. So thank you again annd again for your love and support. I couldn't be on this journey without you all.

God Bless
x Kendy